Leaning forward

If you've been reading my blog, you'll know that I've been in the throws of some minor health challenges. I'm currently in the fine tuning stage and continually learning. I'm learning about my personal health needs, but also about myself. There is no divide between the mind & body . One doesn't outweigh the other, I believe they both need to be treated as one whole priority. I've always been aware of this concept, but falling ill brought me to my knees and made me confront it in a much deeper way.

I'm still in the stages of balancing my health and there are some days that I'm challenged to get things done. I tend to be a planner, a list maker and goal doer, which doesn't bode well with the on-and-off schedule I can sometimes have. This is where the shift in perspective needs to happen. The more I push when I'm not well, the more resistance I create to getting better and completing tasks. You see...it's all connected as one! This has been a constant lesson for me over the past couple of years, and it's been a necessary one. Because the planner, list maker and goal doer are the traits that got me sick in the first place. I allowed that side of me to become the priority, removing an opportunity for balance. Aside from those characteristics, I also happen to be a sensitive person. My sensitive nature often takes the back burner to everything else (my own doing). When that side doesn't get the attention it deserves, I physically pay the consequences. If you don't pay attention to your emotional needs, they'll eventually manifest in other ways. 

I've greatly improved in the area of patience in relation to my needs. I don't push or make myself feel guilty if I'm not feeling well. The sooner I give myself the time to rest or just take a moment to sit, the better I feel. The better I feel, the sooner I am back to being productive. There's a fluidity and ease to life when you start thinking this way. It's all about respecting yourself enough to acknowledge who you are and what that entails. My health circumstances have taught me to be more patient and reminded me that being sensitive requires a lot of attention. The attention I was giving to my check list or planning has now shifted towards myself. There's lessons in every single experience that we have, good and bad. When challenging things happen we often feel helpless. However, the one thing we can rely on is our mindset, and in turn our reactions. This is not to say it's easy, because it has taken me a long time to see the lessons within the pain or the symptoms. Yet, once I started moving in this direction there was a comfort, hope, and an unfolding of more self growth. And for me, the ultimate goal is the discovery of who we are and where that can take us!

Thoughts for next week: This week I was going to post about food but decided not to. So, I'm changing it to next week, and we'll chat food, meal planning, and saving time! 

Have a great weekend - J